Someone learned a new face. Are you kidding me?? I can’t take it! 😱💀😵😍💕
Smith turns two on April 26th. That one sentence has made me cry out loud for several minutes four separate times this week. HOW DO YOU EVEN SURVIVE HAVING YOUR OWN CHILDREN?!?
All I know is, it sucks. For a lot of reasons. It’s hard and I don’t really understand why. The “baby” part is so unbelievably short. It’s so short that it almost feels cruel to allow someone to be a part of something so amazing and wonderful and then end it before you even realize it’s gone. But so many new things are just as wonderful. That baby part just never comes back, ya know? When it’s gone, it’s gone. And it’s a little hard to comprehend that. I’m not making any sense.
I was reading articles written by other nannies on what it’s really like to be one of us and God, so many people verbalized this job so well. There really is nothing like it. It’s so unique and parts of it are bizarre but it’s nothing short of amazing and I thank God every single day that I got paired up with Smith. My entire life is in shambles right now. It really is. But no matter what, it’s always me and her. We always make each other happy. It’s “Nana” and Smith and I am so fucking lucky to have that.
